Sep 25, 2007

Fools Rush Love!

Why do some people meet and then spend every night together from that moment on! I always heard the correct way to date was take it slow to get to know someone (though now at my age I know that it may not matter because guys act perfect for the first couple months or even half a year or so until you live with them and their true colors come out) But I see so many people that do rush it and I wonder if some people are different on how they go into a relationship or they are just stupid lol (pardon the harshness) Or I just never met someone I loved that much...I did love one guy I met from the first site of our eyes meeting but it was a bad time for both us ect long story short but to this day I do miss that feeling! I have been so busy lately it is crazy! I guess one day I will have more time to date or I just need to make it happen somehow or maybe I am just not ready...But it has been a long time and sometimes I worry as some tell me I will be single forever lol but those who know me know I will never settle again! I stay so busy with my sons even if it is less now that they are mostly grown...I tend to let it take over my life! One day One day lol

Sep 4, 2007

It's not always easy being a single woman!

It's not always easy being single and a woman with a big heart! I usually hate to hurt a guys feeling so I tend to avoid them when I don't want to see them or deal with them! Sometimes I am afraid to date as when I left all my 3 exs that was live in I wanted out but dang it sucked big time! And I am very picky and figure it is not worth dating someone unless I am 100 percent into it and frankly because I cant relocate I feel stuck in never finding the right guy! I used to date a ton around 6 yrs ago I was like wow this is so cool many great single men wow but then reality set in lol So many live so far away and could not relocate and the ones who could (sure I have got ragged for saying this before and it is a touchy thing) But someone that could easly relocate I dont think I would want them and I am by far someone that is money hungry or else I would not be struggling being single so many years and live alone and keep my pride but I have thought of that I have seen a cute guy in a fast food and was like could I date a guy that did my age I guess you expect the guy to have it together lol Sometimes people tell me I am crazy to not go for money only love but I just can't I can't fake feelings and then the other problem is I went not for looks but the personality (well it did change some to worry me but all and all he is just a nice guy) But I got bored and not attracted to him intimately really it was like he was a brother no offense to my ex see thats me they would dog me out in a sec especially since I will not be with them anymore well not so bad these days (they know I am too old for it or they are lol but sometimes it comes back the anger to this day thru my kids and the contact but not often now as they get older ect thank God for small favors lol) But I forgot what started this lol Oh Being single and the hard times with it and a women alone has issues a man never would like guys that I don''t see no more even my ex's still pester me or want me or if u date they go phone happy on you (the ones that don't may be phone happy too just to many women at once lol ;-) But I hate to tell someone I date that I don't like them as I hate to hurt their feelings but thats part of dating I guess! I don't know lol my ex from years ago my 17 yr olds dad said (he is much older than I am 15 yrs lol I was a 19 yr old he was mean and rowdy spoiled but athletic Jew lol) But he said I wish you would just find you someone good for you not all men are bad don't let us your ex's ruin it for you lol So but sorta funny but true! I don't ever want to fall for the wrong person again and how do you know takes time and I am hard to give that time freely! Well I am cool with being single but the people that meet an fall at first site I am not ...more careful whom I date and see it saved me from a bad relationship...some people don't take the time to know the person for who they really are faults and all! I may be one old maid waiting on my perfect match to be in my neighborhood or able to relocate to be with me until I die and go to heaven (I hope lol ;-) I do believe but not a perfect angel here lol been called one but I am not perfect lol kids out of wedlock for one lol But any who I do have strong faith ect.

Good night I am off to bed and done venting lol